I’m still focused on drawing...intensely so.
At this point I can’t even remember what it was like to paint, sculpt, whatnot, or what were the motivations behind that older work. The feelings and knowledge are there, but, it’s like they’re penned in (no pun intended) behind a fence. It’s kind of a scary feeling, as an artist, to feel disconnected from something I created. Like a viewer moving through an art gallery, there’s a separation between me and my work.
I’m not 100% sure why it’s happening, but, I can make a guess.
Focus is my thing. Like the Eye of Sauron, when I get something in my view that’s all I see. In other blog posts I talk about follow my gut with my art, doing what it tells me to do and going with the flow that feels most right. I think that’s what I’m going through right now, but to a new degree. I’m learning to trust myself more and more and let that focus tune out everything that’s not important at the moment.
Trying to make a living as an artist is a bitch, straight up.
I’m not going to get into the details because everyone knows them already (Support your artist friends because we really need it!). The quickest way I see to make money from my skills is to design. Whether it’s t-shirts, stickers, logos, album covers, whatever, that’s going to be the shortest path to rent money. Art, well, it’s gonna be a while before I have anything close to resembling a style that others might jump on to. Until then, I gotta do what I can do.
The drawing has been my all...everyday I go through pages on pages of pencil.
From client proof sketches to figuring out...figures. There are these ideas that I have, like asteroids way out on the edge of the solar system, orbiting slowly around the sun. I know they’re there, but no idea what’s up...yet. The sun that sits at the center of my creative solar system is slowly gaining mass. Periods like this add more and more to the fire. At some point in the future all those ideas I got floating out there will be drawn in...when I’m ready for them.
A lot of the time it’s hard to see the forest for the trees as I slog forward.
I’m so busy day-to-day that I get caught up in the frustration that I’m not getting any better. The advance is so incremental as to be maddening. I think it’s easy to feel like that when your focus is so, well, focused. Yeah, I know there are the peaks and plateaus, but I don’t have time to sit at one level for too long. So, I guess that means I need to focus even more...draw even more...keep the distractions out of my life, be comfortable how I’m fencing certain feelings off for the moment. If you wanna get good at something...
Thanks for dropping by and reading the blog. If you have a minute check out my designs and see if there’s something you like.